Okay, Okay

So, I fell through on a promise I made... already. But not for the reasons one might expect. I just honestly.. haven't felt much like writing. There's been a lot going on in the world, most annoying related to evil politicians that I won't delve into at this late hour. I'm writing tonight, primarily, to confess. To confess a bit about what's going on with my body that I'm most uncomfortable with. It's these icky little pests we all get from time to time... Most commonly referred to as "zits." Diagnosed with "Foliculitus" a few months back, my doctor gave me a prescription to hopefully help clear them up. Well, the medication was too much of a pain in the ass to use, so ultimately, I gave up on it, and they went away on their own. See, in HIV patients, what happens is, Staff bacteria infects the hair folical, and causes it to swell up to a ugly little white head, puss, ooze, and infect more skin around it. Normally, your body does a pretty good job fighting off the bacteria and it just goes away for most people. It's not known why some people have acne problems and others do not, but hygene, and genetics certainly have something to do with it. Now, while blessed with good genetics, I have the unfortunate plague that affects those that have not been so blessed at birth. Basically, my body is too busy fighting off nasty little Immunovirii to bother with the staff... And what started as a small amount of zits here and there on my legs has now apparently taken over half my body. In fact, my legs itch like hell, and burn, and look red, sore, and swollen from the level of infection, which is really quite troubling. I feel like I'm being eaten alive by bacteria I can't even see. It's a horrible feeling. I don't know how I was so fortunate to have come across such a wonderful and supportive boyfriend before all these symptoms had started, cause I'm sure if he didn't love me so much, he wouldn't be here today by my side watching this crap take over my body. For better or worse, they say, right? Well, I've had the unfortunate displeasure of looking into what the future might hold if I don't keep up with this topical medication, and it looks pretty ugly. In fact, in two short days, it seems like the number of zits on my body has gone from 40-50 to about 150 or so.. Small clusters seem to be popping up all over, just as some go away. A simple google search will reveal what we're talking about here. Anyhow.. the good news to all of this is, as my immune system starts to pick back up from taking the meds, the frequency, severity, and ugliness of this stuff might never rear its head again. Yay meds. So what if I feel dizzy for an hour or so. And, quite frankly, I'm looking forward to dreams in technicolor and virtual reality. ;-) It's not so bad, is it? And, my mom gets to hear my voice at least 30 seconds before bedtime. I'm certain that has to make her happy. :-) [She calls to remind me, or I call her when I've taken them... since 100% compliance is an absolute must with these meds.] So, things aren't so bad, I guess.

I'm feeling incredibly greatful for the strength of this wonderful support system I have in place. I feel like I'm going nuts, but I know that it's just a temporary condition, and can bear it mostly because of the support that these people provide.

Signing off,

Zit Legs